How can I let myself worship?

I read a devotional written by the legendary preacher, Charles Haddon Spurgeon. It makes me take a step back and look hard at myself. I have to wonder how to let myself go so that I can truly worship in the way that the Bible declares I should and in a way commensurate with the glory God deserves for all he has done for me in my life, not the least of which is that He sent His Son, Jesus, to demonstrate a truly godly life, to fulfill the ancient covenant made with Moses and discussed by the prophets, and then to die on the cross and be resurrected, all so that my sin may be forgiven and I may have eternal life. And not just for me, but for every man, woman and child born to this earth.

He provides for me everyday. He has given me a family and friends. He has given me a place to sleep out of the weather and more food to eat than I need. He has blessed us in so many ways. Yet, I am fearful to let go and praise Him. I am afraid, somehow, to expose myself - to what? Perhaps to public ridicule? Oh, look at him? He can't sing - he's got his hands in the air - it just makes his belly look bigger - and look at his bald spot!

What does it say about my faith that I can't let go of my fears and just step up and praise Him who has saved my life and provided so many blessings in it?

Spurgeon said:

We will be glad and rejoice in Thee. We will not open the gates of the year to the dolorous notes of the sackbut, but to the sweet strains of the harp of joy, and the high sounding cymbals of gladness. "O come, let us sing unto the Lord: let us make a joyful noise unto the rock of our salvation." We, the called and faithful and chosen, we will drive away our griefs, and set up our banners of confidence in the name of God. Let others lament over their troubles, we who have the sweetening tree to cast into Marah's bitter pool, with joy will magnify the Lord. Eternal Spirit, our effectual Comforter, we who are the temples in which Thou dwellest, will never cease from adoring and blessing the name of Jesus. We WILL, we are resolved about it, Jesus must have the crown of our heart's delight; we will not dishonour our Bridegroom by mourning in His presence. We are ordained to be the minstrels of the skies, let us rehearse our everlasting anthem before we sing it in the halls of the New Jerusalem. We will BE GLAD AND REJOICE: two words with one sense, double joy, blessedness upon blessedness. Need there be any limit to our rejoicing in the Lord even now? Do not men of grace find their Lord to be camphire and spikenard, calamus and cinnamon even now, and what better fragrance have they in heaven itself? We will be glad and rejoice IN THEE. That last word is the meat in the dish, the kernel of the nut, the soul of the text. What heavens are laid up in Jesus! What rivers of infinite bliss have their source, aye, and every drop of their fullness in Him! Since, O sweet Lord Jesus, Thou art the present portion of Thy people, favour us this year with such a sense of Thy preciousness, that from its first to its last day we may be glad and rejoice in Thee. Let January open with joy in the Lord, and December close with gladness in Jesus.

From Morning and Evening Devotions.

So, this year, I will learn how to be glad and rejoice. I will learn how to be joyful in His presence. I will praise the name of Jesus and thank God for sending Him. I will learn how to set aside my fears and forget to worry about what other people think of my actions.